How can I keep from singing

This week has been the most challenging week for me. Many problems just come and stay there. 

I am a moody person. I have never think when my emotion raises. I just decide everything based on my emotion.

This world seems such a failure for me. Family, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, money, clothes, bags, shoes; nothing everlasting. None of them can ever give me such a satisfaction. This week has been the toughest week both for my physical and spiritual. Summer school challenges my mood so great. I have never thought that this class will be such a challenge for me. Having 5 hours (8 am-1.10 pm) class, 5 days a week for about 6 weeks just too much for me. Moreover, losing my hope and belief in my friends seems so hurtful. Knowing the truth that your friends just changed over time is just so stressful. Knowing that my boyfriend/girlfriend doesn't want to sacrifice for you is just so disappointing. Having small fights with my family members just turns your day upside down.

My spiritual life has declined. I back up my faith in God. I keep asking God why does you give me such challenges like these at the same time. I keep thinking that the challenges which He gave me last year was enough to examine my faith in Him. Why should He give me another one? I have never understand what the purpose of my life. What the purpose of Him giving me a lot of challenges this time.

Today, I went to church. I have never thought that it will touch my heart so deeply. It was not the sermon. It was not the people at the church. There was one song that touched me. It was "How Can I Keep From Singing", Chris Tomlin. The lyrics says:

There is an endless song

echoes in my soul

I hear the music ring

and tho the storms may come

I am holding on

to the rock I cling

Reff:

How can I keep from singing Your praise

How can I ever say enough

How amazing is Your Love

How can I keep from shouting Your Name

I know I am loved by the King

and it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes

in the darkest night

for I know my Savior lives

and I will walk with You

knowing You see me through

and sing sing the songs You give

back to Reff*

Coda:

I can sing in the trouble times

Sing when I win

I can sing when I lose my step and I fall down again

I can sing cause You pick me up

Sing cause You there

I can sing cause You hear me Lord

When I call You in prayer

I can sing with my last breath

Sing for I know

That I'll sing with the angels and the saints around the throne

back to Reff*

Everything that is said in the song is true. How can I keep from singing His praise. This song makes me realize that every challenges that I have gone through is just nothing compares to the grace which He has given me throughout my life. I should not complain for everything. I have such a GREAT life. GREAT parents, GREAT sister, GREAT school, GREAT jobs, GREAT grade, GREAT boyfriend. I just feel so blessed with my school. Every achievements which I have accomplished in my school are beyond everybody else. Every good things just come abundantly in my life. Many times I betrayed God but He still gives me everything best;  scholarships, good grades, two jobs at school which are really hard to get these days. 

I now realize that I can sing in every circumstances that I am facing. I know that I can sing in trouble times, sin in my win, sing when I lose my step and fall down again. Cause I know that You will always be there for me. Cause You will pick me up again and again. You will always hear me Lord in my prayer. Help me to understand that every challenges You give are good for me. Help me to be patient and believe in You even more.  Thank you for being such a GREAT God for me. I just have to remember that men are disappointing but God will never disappoint you. When you feel that you are alone, you should realize that God will ALWAYS be with you. 

How amazing is Your LOVE God. I am loved by the King. Remind me God that everything comes from You alone. Your Love is just enough for me. Satisfy me Lord with your Love. Your Love is just so enough for me.

The Grove

Today my sister, my boyfriend, and I went to "The Grove". The atmosphere there reminded me with a video posted on youtube. I'll give the URL at the end.

So, today was so bright. Even though the wind blew pretty hard, the sun shone pretty strong. I love "The Grove". The atmosphere is just so relaxing. We took some pictures which I want to share here.

I was wearing Mango owl sleeveless top, Zara jeans, Joan&Davis black shoes, ANGL black blazer, Balenciaga bag, and accessories from Swarovski, Juicy, and Pandora.

Me and my sister at "The Grove". We had so much fun there.

The Brazilian food that we ate earlier. It tastes so good.

The Farmer's Market at "The Grove".

 

We then went to Zara. My favorite place to shop.

Anthropologie has the cutest car I have ever seen in my life. LOL 

My new shoes by Joan&David. It is so comfortable. It is actually too big for my feet cos I am 4.5 but I bought it anyway. I love it so muchh!!!

My boyfriend took almost every pictures of these. He is pretty good I think. LOL. Anyways, thanks to him for giving his time to take those pictures.

Me n my lovely boyfriend at "The Grove".

Here's the video that I promised earlier. I love this video so much. This is the greatest marriage proposal ever. I thought it took place at "The Grove". However, it was actually at Americana, Glendale, CA. You should see it!! Enjoy..

 

Does the train looks like it?

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My Eyes

Lately my sister has been so into make up. So, she uses me as her model.
I don't really like waring make up. It hurts my eyes so bad.
I look so different when I wear make up.

Isn't it nice?!

She was also doing my make up for my banquet. It was a banquet for AGS.

So yeaah... Thanx to my sister for making me beautiful ^^

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Congratz GRADs

The graduation is today... I am happy for my friends who are graduating.
Congratz GRADs!!!

I was wearing Zara knitwear and black top, American Eagles jeans, Tory Burch shoes, Balenciaga bag, and Marc Jacobs sunglasses.

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Scholarship!!

Several days ago, I got a letter from the scholarship office. It was a very shocking news...

Yesss, I GOT A SCHOLARSHIP!!!! 

I have never imagine that I will get another scholarship. I'm so happy.

So, today was the ceremony. I had to attend the ceremony in order to get my scholarship.
I was wearing a black Zara blouse, a nude Angl skirt, a black Tory Burch shoes, Balenciaga bag, and Cara necklaces.

Well... My name is actually Felicia Osadi. So that's what appears on the certificate.

Me and my sister. She is happy for me =)

My aunts, cousin, and me. They came from Glendora just to see me here.

Tio, Howard, and me. We are all the scholarship recipients.

The math lab family. I am currently working at the math lab as a tutor. They are all my tutor friends. Our boss (the man in brown) was very proud of us. He wrote all the recommendation letters. LOL

Well, after all I just feel so blessed by God. After all the bad things that I have done, He still fill my life with extremely GOOD things. I just have to learn to be more thankful for everything.

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The presents...

So, I got so many beautiful things on my bday...

My sister got me a calculator. I lost mine when I was tutoring someone at school. Saad =(
I got the Balenciaga bags that I want so bad from my lovely boyfriend. He also gave me the hello kitty doll. Cuteee ;)
I got two birthday cards. The first one is from my best friend and her boyfriend. Thank you for the encouragement ^^
The other one is from my Chemistry classmates. They tried to put every little things that I like on the card. The picture was taken during the Chemistry Lab session.  They brought me tiramisu cake too.

Anyways... Thank you for all of these little and big the big presents. You guys are such a best friends.

PS: Thank you for my family too. They sent me a small but important presents. LOL

Muaaaach~~~

Birthday BLAST!!!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!! Am I excited?! Not Really.
But what makes me so happy is ...... I'm done with finals...

Such an accomplishment. I am happy and proud of myself. I was thinking about giving up at first.

I found it really difficult to adjust with all my classes.

I got a surprise party from all my friends. I am very happy about it. Knowing the truth that there are a lot of people that care about you makes this life feels so much easier.

So, here is the story.

Today after the finals, I just wanted to go home right away. I was lacked of sleep because of the finals. However, my sister and my boyfriend kept forcing me to have dinner with them. I was so mad because I really wanted to sleep. I knew that there was something wrong with them. So, I followed them by going to the restaurant.  Here's some pictures of my sister, my boyfriend, and me. ^^

After we are done, we are ready to go. However, I couldn't find my car at the parking spot even tho I had the key with me. They said that my car was towed. I wasn't panic at all since I know that they would do something for me. Then I kept laughing while they pretended to be very scared and panic. We then waited for our friend to pick us up. We waited for about 40 minutes until our friend came.

This picture was taken while we were waiting to be picked up.

When we arrived at our friend's house. Everyone was there. I felt so happy to see them there but I still hadn't see my car yet. LOL

Suddenly, my sister took my bag and gave it to my boyfriend. I knew that they were about to bring my car back. And the car should be my biggest surprise. However, I saw it as they didn't close the gate. Lol. 

This was the biggest surprise ever. 

The surprise was kinda failed but it was still touching my heart. The effort that they had put so that this plan could happen was just so wonderful. 

OMG. I love you guys very much. You guys cannot imagine how thankful I am to God that He has placed me in the mid of you guys.

Thank you for everything!!!!!!

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